The Boy Least Likely To

i always wanted to be a dj. on the radio. not in night clubs or anything. i never wanted to do it in front of other people. i don't want to see how disappointed everyone looks when i play something. i don't want to see them lining up bored along the walls. i don't want to see them not dancing. not enjoying themselves. not enjoying listening to the things i love. i tried it once and it was horrible. i ended up playing young folks twice just to try and keep people happy. no. i think i'd rather just imagine someone is listening even if perhaps they're not. i can fool myself quite easily. i know i only end up trying to appease everyone if i can see how they're reacting. so i think if i was a dj it would have to be on the radio where i couldn't see anyone who was listening, and i would have to have a show in the early hours of the morning. i'm too melancholic to be a breakfast dj, and i'm not lively enough after the three o clock wall to do drivetime. i'd like to be like jack killian, but without all those weirdoes calling in. just playing records.